H is for hiding

Some times I feel like I’ve been hiding my whole life. I don’t think anyone ever told me I should be embarrassed to be interested in spanking, but the urge to hide this interest seems instinctive. I was so scared when I started my first blog. What if my family found out, especially my kids? What if my boss found out? Would I lose my job?  If anyone found out would I be able to stand the embarrassment?

I’ve relaxed a lot over the years, my parents are gone, my kids are grown. As I’ve written more I’ve become very proud of my writing. I began sharing what I was doing with close friends and family, most I’ve told have been both amused and supportive. I’m not planning on sending my boss a copy of my book, but when you get right down to it there in nothing in my Cassie stories he could say anything about. They’re happily married, they have a satisfying sex life – none of which is described in detail and they happen to engage in consensual adult spanking. Nothing in my books is illegal, immoral or even fatting.

If anyone should ask about how TTWD comes into play for Nick and me I probably down play it unless I knew it was someone interest in learning about a DD relationship. We don’t do DD, but I feel I understand it and I’d discuss it. But for a vanilla, I’d probably down play it as mostly a slap and tickle game. First, it’s none of their business and second, for most vanillas, it’s all they are going to be able to understand.

I love not having to hide much anymore. I know that has come with being out here so long and getting to a point in life where the possible negative views of others don’t concern me much. There are real and serious reasons why the love of spanking and the fact we are writing novels about it might need to be hidden from others. Some of you are at a place in your lives where it is very necessary But I want you to know, when you reach the age when you don’t feel the need to hide any more it’s wonderful!